Writing is something which perhaps makes me calm right now. A phase of inflection is always interesting but tiresome. Tiredness of the mind. A change is observed in my writing style..
A life of interesting chain of events and a continuous dynamic flow of time has always made me curious about the world. If you have read my other blogs, in each of them I have tried proving a point.
It was that phase of my life, when I was trying to understand others, the world, its nature, the cause and effect through ages and so many other stuff.
A hungry social need of recognition was always impacting my thoughts and directing it towards understanding the contradiction. May be that is a part of me. As Ray has explained in his interview with Shyam Benegal in 83-84, Bengal has always been a seat of contradictions and mostly that is a universal inner conflict that has existed because of different actions and psyche of the people, resulting into sharp divisions in opinions and slowly that became a tendency. And sometimes it leads to unnecessary mandates, laws, rules, decisions and mindsets, causing different behavior of people at different phases of their minds and different sphere.
After many years, a shift in the need is observed. Feuds are good but they take too much of your mind space and affects others. It is better sometimes to just ignore the conflict and moving towards the goal. The greater good.
War, one of the many established greater goods have always made me curious. Since the first battle of Neanderthal to, the battle of Athens, in may be some three figured BC or BCE, till the World War II, human has shown same nature but in their own unique customized way. After-all.. its every one of us who think, that they are unique and they have a decision making CPU which takes it's own commands in decision making process. A natural form of Artificial Intelligence.
My current state of mind seeks responses according to the current values in my mind. According to the law of attraction, I have reached where I have reached due the impact of cause and effect and my current state of mind as well as my own responses depends on this "now" kind of thing.. Not easy to explain, but one thing is evident.. That's what is painting my frames of the future.
What an interesting piece of time and matter. The domain and the never ending vlc player where someone put on the ▻(Play) button maybe some 13.7 Billions years back and forgot to perss Pause or Stop. :P
The early signs of calmness appeared in this world, because every unbalanced force try to balance the equation with an exact need in alteration of inner self and the outer one. A very complex process leading us to what we are now.
For me the first quadrant has been crossed. The childhood ended with a boom. The world of Corporate attracted and here I am doing what has to be done.. and in fact it has to be done otherwise the purpose or the objective wont be fulfilled which will hamper the course of growth.
Now the difference between the last and the immediate phase of my mind is that, the purpose has changed. Also that has affected the priorities.
